Today above all others I feel those two natures warring within me. I never know if listening to Emilie Autumn gives me multiple personalities, or if I listen to Emilie when I have them.
But today, Hildegarde and Oriente. The dominant and the submissive. I am fighting Hildegarde to give Oriente a chance, and this fight puts me in a constant concentration.
How can I explain?
When I am acting out of ego, out of need, I feel that surge of her dominance, but with head bowed, voice silent, I struggle to maintain Oriente's perfect nature of noninterfering.