A Reprise

There is one consolation in that it is raining, and cold, and miserable today. Even yet I would rather be by my window learning Dreamweaver or editing photos or stories. I yearn dissolutely for my fantasies, yet I am in no position to present myself to them: I have little concentration or energy at my disposal right now.

I am so proud of myself. I have paid attention to my lecture almost all morning.

Morning: I look out over a flat, luminous Fort Worth near the Trinity River. My class is about to begin. This isn't so bad, but it's hard to imagine being here for seven more hours.

I am trying unsuccessfully to sleep. I thought it would be this way. Here begins my first week working during the day: of course only for this week. I have had such a wonderful weekend. Today I had a sushi roll made just for me: rice, white tuna, cream cheese, wrapped in soy paper and drizzled with chili sauce, aioli and wasabi cream. Yesterday we went to the Crow Asian art museum in Dallas, a sculpture garden, and a pricey restaurant called Dragonfly. I wish the weekend didn't have to end, but I had a wonderful time, took some pictures, and I have this great British Dreamweaver magazine I read tonight. It gave me some great ideas for my photography/writing site.

This morning I rejoice. This morning I have realized how some of my writing is bad. I do not know quite how to make it right, but this is a start. There has never been a time when I have realized the badness of my writing that I have not been able to fix the problem, so I am not afraid. I hope that I will have many more revelations like this, so that one day I can become a good writer.

Pretty tea shop Originally uploaded by ladyhildegarde . Night time at Summer Party tea shop in Irving, Texas.

Grandma's birthday carrot cheesecake from The Cheesecake Factory.