That I won't disappear in the water. That I won't always be swimming against the tide." --Darren Hayes, Taken by the Sea There is no division between his words and my feelings. In this life I have met the same people over and over again. I confront the same forces again and again. When I was a child I had a parakeet who was beautiful and precious to me. She died in an accident that was my fault. Really since then I have never known such an intensity of grief and remorse. I truly, yearned to die when I had killed her. My feelings were so immense that there was almost no way that something couldn't be done about it. A few years later my stepfather brought home another bird, a cockatiel, a male, really, but when I held him and spent time in his presence, I knew he was the same bird that she had been. It was actually her. And I know it just as well now as I did then, years ago. And whenever I have wanted something, so dearly, it has come, and I know there is no w
Tonight is the night of the vampire.