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Tea at River Legacy

The prince They were closing in on me, though their movements were ever so subtle. They looked at me, and averted their eyes when I saw them staring. I knew I must stand out from the dancers in my plain clothes, but there was something more to it than that. Suddenly a hand grabbed my wrist. Grips came around my arms. I cried out, frightened. I found myself leaning against my dance partner and staring as Angelica approached me. Her eyes had gone pale: the pupils were slits, even though the room was shadowed. The grip on my arms tightened. "You fool," he said to me. "I told you to leave, that it was dangerous for you." I turned and saw that Lysander held me. I was speechless as when we had last met, each time with the expectation that I would not see him again. I was so beguiled by his presence I could say nothing intelligent. Impatiently he looked passed me to the others that had crowded close, dispelling them with a glinting look. In a moment it became clear to me.

Discussion on Villette

This is to me not like Jane Eyre. Jane Eyre is dramatic and melancholy, a true period romance, while Villette contains too many little heartbreaks and no large ones that would constitute a romance. Lucy's wild delirium of loneliness is the most emotional interval I have read in the story. In this she reveals fully the passions that lie beneath her cool exterior. Soon after we learn that she has closed even the reader off in some information, such a private person she is, and she has returned to her cool reserve. She describes in painful yet analytical detail what it is like to make a living as a woman, and even more interestingly, in a woman-dominated work. As a reader I identify, I recognize, I rage. As a working woman I feel I am looking into a mirror, examining a world nearly two centuries ago full of the same kinds of people in this one. Two older matriarchs dominate Lucy's life, and are remarkably similar to each other. One is genteel, the other dishonest and underhanded,

Things I might do this afternoon

Continue to edit Winter Light Done. Look at Love's Image Do more writing exercises Write up a new chapter of Cinderella Love's Image has evolved into three different versions. Marianne chooses Conrad. Jamison is unhappy. Conrad leaves the picture fairly soon. Marianne realizes she loves Jamison. A different, more sensitive Conrad is tormented by a mermaid who caused the death of his mother and father and is coming after him. Marina wants to save him.

The summerhouse

They knew a peace and solace in the old summerhouse that was mixed with pain. A cold wind with a bitter note of burning timber filled Delphinia's lungs as she stood in the doorway, watching Oskar's terrible looks. He was like a restless cat pacing, penned in by his own grief, about to fight, like a cat, with unbending will. She too had bitter memories in this place. They were so few, so brief, but they consumed all of her. Gauvain would never hold her again. Soon he would belong to someone else, and she had not even the consolation of his love. He viewed her and her love as utterly wrong. Now that she understood the integrity in him she knew he would not spare her another look. This mingled bitterly with the sweet sting of knowledge that she had found, she was convinced, the person she had sought all of her life, someone who had loved her genuinely and unreservedly. In that moment she knew she would never marry Christoph. She felt equal to the burden of disapproval, loneliness

Angelica

I stared into those eyes, memerized like a mouse by a cobra. Something whispered in the back of my mind to take caution, but I could not logically associate it with the strange but evidently benign gathering. "Hello," she said, her eyes sweeping me up and down, delineating the plainness of my clothing, saying as politely as possible, you were not invited . "What's going on?" I stammered. "I thought this building was abandoned." "Why, so did we," she returned. "We thought we would have a gathering without disturbing anyone." I could not tell if she meant for me to go, or if she meant to apologize. "I'm Angelica," she said, turning and, over her shoulder, "You are welcome to join." I was soon so lost in the whirling costumes, haunting music and tantalizing sweets I forgot that I was an intruder. Others watched me while they danced, and I stared at them; they were all smiling, but not overtly. Soon I was invited

The ball of the beasts

They were dancing, dozens of men and women, in tattered costumes that looked as though they had moldered in attic trunks for a hundred years or more. I knew not one among them, but I stared raptly at the largest gathering of people I had seen in years. The source of the music was an old crank phonograph, loud even above the talk and laughter. No one seemed to notice me, so I drew closer to watch. The dance tune it played was lively, but hectic would be a better description for it than cheerful, and the flaws in the record the phonograph played rasped and crackled as loudly as the music, making it sound as dilapidated as the dancers' costumes, as the room itself. Spread along one wall was a tempting assortment of sweets. Where had they secured this repast? I looked at the food hungrily. I had probably forgotten what such treats tasted like. They would be better than I could imagine. I found myself drifting into the room. Finally someone noticed me. A woman in a watered silk gown of

Some things on my mind

Why is our dishwasher not working? I need to see if debris is stuck. In what do I need to rinse the glasses to remove hard water stains after washing? How do I remove tea and coffee stains from my dishes? Winter Light, I have put my design on hold in favor of my project with Josette. The site elements I planned to use may change. I am putting the project off indefinitely. Writing goals, what do I want to work on this week? I may take some general story time to index and take notes since I don't have a specific story to do. Continuation of The Empty City. I like writing it. I am copying some scenes directly from Cambriel. Obviously I am going to excise those scenes from Cambriel. Then, Red Rose. This will make a great trilogy. It's hard to believe I planned all this out in college, then abandoned the project. It's turning out just like I predicted. Josette's site, continue to learn PSP's mask function, edit background image, continue to format text and make layout mo

Into the music

I stood in the stillness for a long moment, watching dust motes drift on the gold-colored space, aware of shadows shifting subtly, the sun rising. I moved to the window and watched the rising sun with a sense of awe. I had not seen it in longer than I could remember; it brought memories of warmer, gentler times that grew around me momentarily stronger than the present darkness. I dreamed of Lysander, though briefly, for we had shared such a small time, and then further back my mind's eye reached, to my time with my mother. She had disappeared when I was sixteen or seventeen. My father I had never known, and without her I was completely alone, except for old Agatha on the roof, here, and some other neighbors. It was not a question of my dependence on her. She and I needed each other emotionally far more than I needed a parent. Our world was too decentralized already to allow for the traditional means of income. We both foraged for what we had. But without her, I noticed the cold tha

Mount of Olives Earl Grey

Contains a lot of things I've not had before: olive leaves, grape leaves and pomegranate leaves. Has a distinctive Mediterranean flavor. The bitterness and tang would complement Mediterranean food. It is definitely something I would buy again. I like how it combines so many flavors without using actual fruit flavors.