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Reinventing myself

I think who you want to be is already a part of who you are.

I think when I emerge from a trial that the person I've been inventing secretly for months is ready to emerge.

This happens every few years.

Anyway, this new person is Plain Jane. Sort of like Jane Eyre, but Gen-Y. Because I really am right on the border of X and Y, and right now I am definitely more Y.

So nice to meet you. Basically I'm more laid back, less critical, selfish and demanding of life, less inhibited in my personal expression, less afraid to try new things. Don't believe me? Wait and see. I can feel it happened in the last 24 hours. I am this Plain Jane now.

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