I'm not afraid ... Lacuna Coil

Watch your back
because I am coming closer - shivers down your spine
you were not expecting me - how does it feel
to be faced in your territory? - are you afraid to see me here?

I'm not afraid - to take my time, to live my life
the way I want to
I'm not afraid
to take you down and live my life as I want to
I'm not afraid

Closer but apart
no one else can hear us
get out of that car
did you wanna leave without me?
how does it feel to be faced in your territory?
are you surprised to see me here?

Love oneself

I have found a new barometer by which to judge my actions, or rather, it is an involuntary barometer that is improving me perhaps without my say. For every weak thing I do or begin to do, I ask myself if I would admire myself for it. I have felt so critical of myself lately, so ugly, so awful, and out of it has sprung this quest to improve myself. I don't want to become a slave to style magazines; rather, I could not admire myself for doing that. At the same time, I want to look right and decent and keep from embarrassing myself. I feel like my hygeine is always falling short, just like the housework. Every time I turn around, there's hair where hair shouldn't be, there's stuff under my toenails, my tee shirts are shrinking up and showing my stomach; to say nothing of my wildly oxidizing jewelry, scuffed shoes, &c. I don't understand why I don't see anyone else with these problems! Do they spend all their time at home cleaning their jewelry and ironing their

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Studying with Dolls

In the afternoons, I usually take my laptop or a book to the bed and study, and a doll for company. Gertrude is sitting on my bed desk. I got her in 2015 from the Korean doll company Dollmore. She's a "Flocke" sculpt. Willow is sitting with my headphones. She's made by the Chinese company Angel of Dream. I got her in 2013. She's a "Qing" sculpt.

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Elmer M. Oliver Nature Park

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A Reprise

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